on my moments of sadness.

28042010,8:35Pm
SABRINA ILY more than anyone does, nt even Ariffin can replace me cuzzin(:

thanks babe for being there for me when ie was totally down, thats why ie sayang ue laah seyh!
im here back home finally. WoW! my tuesday sucked. Nana now want be goodgirl, ie dont want to make the person ie love disappointed and angry with me. Im sorry, ie didnt know my attitude sucked tt much. Ie want t change but it will take time ryte? Oke, yst met Wan in the afternoon, ie dont want to say what happened. Let it go. Then yst mkn at S11 aft tt lepaked with Sab Syg, and SA! until morning. Wassssehhh nantok uhs! Then Nana called Wan & he asked me what ie want. Walaaaan, sedeh pe! Then aq dari kecoh2 diam jeh laahs. SA asked why. Ie yst giler one, when kecoh then kecoh but bilerh quiet just kept quiet. Then ie like wan fall asleep alr, but ie tahan. SA and Sab busy talking, forget me! Sob. SA, Sab I HATE YOU! ): Tklaaahh, bluff jehs! SA nie busy bbual psl bini dyeh jeh. Ie dont want masok campo. Im just outsider. Sab plak aseq ckp aq giler! Alamakkk, whats wrong wif everyone bby? They keep saying ie giler! Aq tk giler luhs! SA tmrw blanje me ben&jerrys seyh! Thanks SA ily laah:D Today ie SOT GILER laahs seyh! Ie had t reach hm at 2pm. So dad took me at tamp, cus ie was superrr tired t take bus! Haiya! Then went ICA building. Ie was totally pissed off seyh, had to follow go there. Pdhl, ie nk tido tau! Nvm, sabar jeh Nana! Wan called me like so the finally, asked me where ie was & he wanted me t buy smtg. Ape ehs? Herms, he nvr told me. Then he put down & Akyie called. Ie talked to him so the sopan for first time. Da lah, Nana da serik laah nk kurang ajar. Ie told Akyie ie stopped smoking. IDK laah, after we put down ie kept thinking. Kalau Nana goodgerl mesti sweet. Entahlah? Im not ready. Kasi lah nana go for laser session ferst, change btol2. Herms, Girls Home called. Asl? Ie tk tau? Okee, im tired actually. SA say true. Ie must rest from everyone. SA said ie look strong but actually weak. Stop crying for guys. Ie am weak laah SA, im not strong! aq kental giler babi mans! Tmrw me maybe meeting akyie kalau dyeh free. But Confirm SA laah nk blanje me mkn chocolate icecream. Alalalaaaah, syg kawwww! Then bsok mlm jumpe wan. Nana hope ie dont do anything wrong this time round. ILY bby (: cepat aleq tau, GATAL! *huggggggg*

i gotta be strong.

WANN said (Yesterday at 10:40 PM):
Wahh I really don't know what to do !!!
WANN said (Yesterday at 10:42 PM):
But my heart say I love you!! But I don't know why!! I think couse of ur attitude!! I just want u to change..but I can't force really!! U right too..tats ur attitude!! But it really make me hurt when I see ur attituede like tat ar!! Haissss!!!
thanks for bloody hurting me by saying you dont like my attitude. Wahhh, hurt seyh. No one has ever commented abt my attitude even my family. Ur the first. & someone ie love? Gosh. It hurts like a million thousand cuts on my heart. Ie just knew smtg wasnt right somewhere and tadddaaa! Kena shoot sraight in the face. Thank you ehh. Ie sayang ue ahh. Its my fault. Tuh lah, tuh psl jantan tnk aq. Psl prangai aq mcm sial! Naseb laah, ie still got friends hu can accept me for hu ie am. Aiyo! Its my fault laah for doing things tt im not supposed to do. Then ue suddenly nvr lyn me, ie was like WTH. Then when ie asked you why, you said ntg. And then it was actually psl prangai ie. Was, saqet hati seh ue. Then as usual, everytime ie ade problems ie blang akyie. Kebetulan matrep call. Wa Caya Sama Lu! Then ie ask him why ppl cnnt accept me? & why he want lyn someone so SEYH like me. Then tros he tuka topic cus he dont like ask me tt qn. When ie relate abt Wan dnt lyke my attitude, ie said its my attitude. He pon say ie can change my attitude. Alamak! He another one, make my blood go upstair. Who teach one? Akyie laah(: Haha. Aiyo! Somebody wan blanja me ben&jerry today! Happy seh aqu. Yelah, "SA" sayang aq mahhhh. Okie luh, ie nvr go hm yst so ie lepak with sab& SA at tamp yst. Hais after so long at last meet SA. hehe, aseq videocall tk meet. Yela, dyeh busy ngan bini dyeh ajehs. Jealous argh Nana! So now, SA kene punish blanja me. Haha! Yst me and Sab, took alot of pics. Ltr when im at hm, i'll update. Hais, sedeh seyh when ie call Wan, he nvr answer. Adoi. For now, ie just forget Wan. Ie dowan be hurt. ALL GUYS ARE BASTERD! okie, ltr ie go hm nk renew passport. pstu 1 may nana wan go JB. 2nd May ie kua ngan sab, SA, Nur gi orchard & bugis shopping. ArGH! forget everything! Cepatlah g skool ie am sick and tired of outside life. HURT! ARGH! SA, ie knw ue want me, ie knw ue want me! HAHA :D ie love my life nw, Free & Easy! Ie still do love you- Im gg hm now. 28042010 2:05Pm

Where'd You Go?

SAD! if you are reading this im sad, YEAH! crazy-ly sad. thanks for todday. ie know ie wasnt my ownself bt im sorry. Well, ie may nt be on my own mind. But ie realize everything ie said. Ie love you. Is it that hard to believe? Wo Ai Ni. If you dont like my attitude im soory. Im this way. Take it or leave it. Im not a minah or what but ie talk like this. Ryte nw, at this point of time, my heart only has you, Syazwan. Ie cinterhkan ue. Its up t ue to believe, im not at home nw. Im using wireless somewhere t update my blog. Hais. Omg! Why am ie crying over smone who doesnt care abt me? Stupid ryte? I know. Well, Kalau Org Tk Sudi Tk Mengapa. Wan, its really okie. Bt if ue wanna stay away from me TELL ME! i l y ie gotta go now. im sorry, ie have no one else except you. Waiting for you! ♫ Baby-Justin Biebier 27april 8pm

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sweet kan?

where wan seyyy, imy!

now 1pm just woke up seyh. wth seyh. wan nt online. he watching video. idk wad zombie. haiyo, nw listening baby song. he send me the song alr! yesterday. my adeq cming back alr); shes gonna irritate me liao. wake up, smoke, nvr bathe, but havent eat. wait for wan eat tugeda. haiyo! nabilah talked to me otp just nw. talk abt that pukimak, ILA! ccb, say my friend got Hiv ue then got uh. ILA BESENG! da nk crik psl ngan aq, skrg kwn aq plak. wahhhh sehhhh, tunggu eh kau!now 1:16 wan online.alaaa, nk webcam bbeh camera nt connected. hmpfh! got me onieeeeeeeeee. sobs!just nw mak ask me y ie go hm late yst. bpk bising sehhh. okie luh, whatever. then ie told her tudae ie meet wan.then she say wan my lakie uh. ie said yup. then salam her then she off to werk. nenek call and membebel. haiyo! malas uh. lucky got i/call. then ie think ie end here, ie tired liaoooooooo ): imy special -

Monday's Outing. 26April.

okie, nie matrep name dyeh AKYIE LAH SEYH! nmpk kt luar, WA MAU REMBAT! lu tunggu masanya jeh boi! waaasehhh minahreph da bual ny. Wa anytime anywhere leh turon nya! Eh AKYIE, Nana maen2 jek laahs. Alaaalaaah. Haha! Okie luh, smlm member tk tido abeh kiterh bual. Cus Nana was down, cus of Wan. Then kiterh plan jmpe uh nyarie. EYH! jgn tgk Akyie eh seyh. Tgk Nana Yg Cute nieees ;D Then actually we want meet at Ite Mcphsn then he gatal maah, go out school early. 1:30 he call my hp ckp dabes skola. WTH! pdhl finesh school at 5? Haiyo. Mampos tanak. K bgos jgk cabot early so can turon faster. Hujan lebat when wan go out. WHY OH WHY? can cry seh. Nvm, then ie go bank take out money $$ (: Then nk gi bustop saner byk MATREP ANGKONGSIAO. see me like can eat, ya lah ie small kid mah. But still lepas buy rokok okie? Hais. Then when smpi Amk Mrt. He there. WAAAAAHHHSEEEYHHH! mcm matrep seyh Akyie from jaoh. HAHA! Sorry eh boi. Lu mmg matrep pa. BTW, while waiting for him smtg happen seh, got this Mrt Officer say t me. Waiting For Your Friend uh? Walaneeeiii, paiseh seh! ny laah, Akyie make me wait! smpi org tgk ie mcm org giler! When ie tell Akyie he laugh. Klaka Kapa! haha(: Then we went Harbourfront. Aqu nk step ferst gerl bwk dyeh naeq MountFaber. Soory uh, tk larat luh seyh! Baru naeq sket, aq da penat. Then we from upstair, go down bck. Haha! stupid ryte this Nana. Then he mepek, say got third eye. Ckp ade hantu, ikot kite. Padahl our shadow. WTH! tkot seyh Nana! Then we jalan2 at Skypark. Walaneiiiiii, Akyie aseq bully aq nk tolak aq dlm water, nk nanges seh nana! Kena Bully! Then aft tt, we took pic. Haha, kesian seyh Akyie got PPL AS SIAL as me aseq careq psl. Alaah, biar laah org tuh. Step dyeh nk rembat nana jeh! Then we go eat at Mac, he nvr eat. Step strong, pdhl nvr eat. Ie bought FilletOFish Meal. The whole tyme we stare at each other then step nk gado. End up aseq ketawe. Then he ask me, his forehead got HAHAHA meh? then ie laugh. Klaka uh lu, mat! Then go smoke, alaamak paiseh uh smoke dpn matrep. He where lyke gerl lyke me. He uh mcm makcik2 tindek salah, minom salah, Smoke also wrong. Aiyo! Pakai pon kene tertib2. Sabar je Nana! neymynds, then he send me kovan bt ie gatal nk jumpe smbdyyyy(: WAN! go amk meet him. Actually sumpah penat tpi syg pe psl ie tron amk. Tunggu kejap je. 10 mnets he come dwn. Member tk nmpk aku pdhl dpan2 jehs! Hehe, then ikot dyeh g sportslink. Wah cm nk mmpos. Penat seh! tkpeluh, Syg nye Psl kan? hais. syg wan luhh seyh. Abeh kiterh g dok bwh blok, isap rkk. Then as usual he maen game. Tkpe, tgk dyeh cute da cukop. He asked me y ie cry yst. Natasha luhs! ); Sedeh tau! Then he send me bck home. Ie took mrt. Then ie just went up escalator, this special person mesg... "Sorry i have no other girl.just u only u." Ya, tts exactly wad he said. Make sure eh Wan! Ie am scared t be hurt again. Hais. Skg, Nana wait for Afan call, what Afan want. Then ... (: Kxian Wan tunggu. Maybe what Afan said was true, once ie outside ill change. Hais. Tapie, Nana nk setie klau btol2 tt smbdy is my one and only. Tanak basterd lakie lagie uhs. Buat pe kan? Dorang pon ade perasaan. Now 1:50am he's asleep liao, tkpe luh ie pon busy blogging, tk lyn dyeh, sbb tuh dyeh boring agknye. okieeeee then, ie pon dahbes. ILY !

Wan (:

da uh, im SUPER lazy t upload pics. kental uh pics. well, now is 1:30. 26April. i already siap ue know, want t go out. take money buy food etc and go harbourfront lepak. and then it rained. Nana nak buy my favourite chocolate for Wan at CandyEmpire but ie know he wont accept. Hais. Nk belik rokok aft kluarkan money(: Oke, actually Nana sad. Cus yst Wan talk abt his ex, Natasha. Nie laah, Nana nk tau sgt psl lovelife dyeh. Ie am scared to be in r/sp ryte nw. Though ie have Afan ryte nw but idk why eversince Syazwan came into my life, im v happy. He nvr fail t entertain me with his jokes and laughter. Haha, ie dont care what the fuck ue all want t say abt me. Ie have no intention t basterd Afan. We just wait and see what Afan has t say t me on the 1st of May. Its nt tt ie cant wait, its just tt ie feel lonely and ie need smone by my side. And well, ive found that person. Nana wont basterd Afan nor Wan, but my heart nw says one name. Herms, For Me To Know For Me To find Out. Ily laah ♥ Oke, yst... Wan met me & again he found me atthe staircase sitting then suddenly he pop out frm nowhere. Actually, ie was looking at him all the way. Idk why, he is the one who puts a smile across my face. He from Yishun soccer came down all the way here. Kxian seh. Nvm, cute uh dyeh(: Then otw to The Rc block, Wan say he bring car. Ya, mcm phm. Then follow his friend go makan, then play this stupid block game with him. He evrytime menang, tak fair seh! urgh! then he help me complete the puzzle. Ie step pandai onie. Then go 711, he rabak. Think ie cat. Haha. Lepak bwh block, then he sing the baby song with actions cute laah dyeh nie. Jatoh g! (: He kxian seh, tell me he stress. Ie lyke want kidnap him put in my hse onie. He send me bck around 11plus. Saw cik Khamis, and my sister call mum down to see Wan. Haha. Wan paiseh! He haus, give money buy drink dowan. End up my sis pester him. Otw hm, ie called him t teman him. TTS WHEN NATASHA THING HAPPEN! he still cntct her, and ya, cnferm gt feelings bck one. Tts y Nana tnk guys. They are so unpredictable. Mcm nasi? Sometimes here, smtimes gone. Now he's here bt ie feel lyke loosing him. Cukop uh kene hurt! ): Sobs. Then ie pass the fone to Yaya and cried. And cried. And cried. He called me bt ie reject. Sorry! Sorry! Then skalie ard 3 ie tried calling him bt his hp was off. Ie was worried cus ie scared he kena lock out of the hse. How? Bt this mrng, ie called him liao. He havent bathe! haha ;) Now im gg out t bank babes(: Will update again. Wan, I Love You -