on my moments of sadness.

28042010,8:35Pm
SABRINA ILY more than anyone does, nt even Ariffin can replace me cuzzin(:

thanks babe for being there for me when ie was totally down, thats why ie sayang ue laah seyh!
im here back home finally. WoW! my tuesday sucked. Nana now want be goodgirl, ie dont want to make the person ie love disappointed and angry with me. Im sorry, ie didnt know my attitude sucked tt much. Ie want t change but it will take time ryte? Oke, yst met Wan in the afternoon, ie dont want to say what happened. Let it go. Then yst mkn at S11 aft tt lepaked with Sab Syg, and SA! until morning. Wassssehhh nantok uhs! Then Nana called Wan & he asked me what ie want. Walaaaan, sedeh pe! Then aq dari kecoh2 diam jeh laahs. SA asked why. Ie yst giler one, when kecoh then kecoh but bilerh quiet just kept quiet. Then ie like wan fall asleep alr, but ie tahan. SA and Sab busy talking, forget me! Sob. SA, Sab I HATE YOU! ): Tklaaahh, bluff jehs! SA nie busy bbual psl bini dyeh jeh. Ie dont want masok campo. Im just outsider. Sab plak aseq ckp aq giler! Alamakkk, whats wrong wif everyone bby? They keep saying ie giler! Aq tk giler luhs! SA tmrw blanje me ben&jerrys seyh! Thanks SA ily laah:D Today ie SOT GILER laahs seyh! Ie had t reach hm at 2pm. So dad took me at tamp, cus ie was superrr tired t take bus! Haiya! Then went ICA building. Ie was totally pissed off seyh, had to follow go there. Pdhl, ie nk tido tau! Nvm, sabar jeh Nana! Wan called me like so the finally, asked me where ie was & he wanted me t buy smtg. Ape ehs? Herms, he nvr told me. Then he put down & Akyie called. Ie talked to him so the sopan for first time. Da lah, Nana da serik laah nk kurang ajar. Ie told Akyie ie stopped smoking. IDK laah, after we put down ie kept thinking. Kalau Nana goodgerl mesti sweet. Entahlah? Im not ready. Kasi lah nana go for laser session ferst, change btol2. Herms, Girls Home called. Asl? Ie tk tau? Okee, im tired actually. SA say true. Ie must rest from everyone. SA said ie look strong but actually weak. Stop crying for guys. Ie am weak laah SA, im not strong! aq kental giler babi mans! Tmrw me maybe meeting akyie kalau dyeh free. But Confirm SA laah nk blanje me mkn chocolate icecream. Alalalaaaah, syg kawwww! Then bsok mlm jumpe wan. Nana hope ie dont do anything wrong this time round. ILY bby (: cepat aleq tau, GATAL! *huggggggg*

i gotta be strong.

WANN said (Yesterday at 10:40 PM):
Wahh I really don't know what to do !!!
WANN said (Yesterday at 10:42 PM):
But my heart say I love you!! But I don't know why!! I think couse of ur attitude!! I just want u to change..but I can't force really!! U right too..tats ur attitude!! But it really make me hurt when I see ur attituede like tat ar!! Haissss!!!
thanks for bloody hurting me by saying you dont like my attitude. Wahhh, hurt seyh. No one has ever commented abt my attitude even my family. Ur the first. & someone ie love? Gosh. It hurts like a million thousand cuts on my heart. Ie just knew smtg wasnt right somewhere and tadddaaa! Kena shoot sraight in the face. Thank you ehh. Ie sayang ue ahh. Its my fault. Tuh lah, tuh psl jantan tnk aq. Psl prangai aq mcm sial! Naseb laah, ie still got friends hu can accept me for hu ie am. Aiyo! Its my fault laah for doing things tt im not supposed to do. Then ue suddenly nvr lyn me, ie was like WTH. Then when ie asked you why, you said ntg. And then it was actually psl prangai ie. Was, saqet hati seh ue. Then as usual, everytime ie ade problems ie blang akyie. Kebetulan matrep call. Wa Caya Sama Lu! Then ie ask him why ppl cnnt accept me? & why he want lyn someone so SEYH like me. Then tros he tuka topic cus he dont like ask me tt qn. When ie relate abt Wan dnt lyke my attitude, ie said its my attitude. He pon say ie can change my attitude. Alamak! He another one, make my blood go upstair. Who teach one? Akyie laah(: Haha. Aiyo! Somebody wan blanja me ben&jerry today! Happy seh aqu. Yelah, "SA" sayang aq mahhhh. Okie luh, ie nvr go hm yst so ie lepak with sab& SA at tamp yst. Hais after so long at last meet SA. hehe, aseq videocall tk meet. Yela, dyeh busy ngan bini dyeh ajehs. Jealous argh Nana! So now, SA kene punish blanja me. Haha! Yst me and Sab, took alot of pics. Ltr when im at hm, i'll update. Hais, sedeh seyh when ie call Wan, he nvr answer. Adoi. For now, ie just forget Wan. Ie dowan be hurt. ALL GUYS ARE BASTERD! okie, ltr ie go hm nk renew passport. pstu 1 may nana wan go JB. 2nd May ie kua ngan sab, SA, Nur gi orchard & bugis shopping. ArGH! forget everything! Cepatlah g skool ie am sick and tired of outside life. HURT! ARGH! SA, ie knw ue want me, ie knw ue want me! HAHA :D ie love my life nw, Free & Easy! Ie still do love you- Im gg hm now. 28042010 2:05Pm