its already 5am, woke up at three just nw. cant sleep. ie had t offline with wan just nw at 1 cus ie was feelinq so super tired from cryinq! felt sleepy so went offline. sorry bby. now ie feelinq abit happy cus ie am nt thinkinq bout just now incident. ie dont wish to cus nnti ie down laqy. yst, ie was super sad. wan not there. sab nt there. they're very important t me and ie wanted t share t them esp wan. bt they were workinq. so ie had to pour everythinq out here bt it made me feel worst. so, ie texted SA and asked to call me. SA finally called aft a while and at tt point of time ie nearly burst but ie controlled cus dad and brother suddenly came and hanq around my place and im lack of privacy! * Anqry * ie thouqht they would leave 5 minutes ltr and ie asked SA t hold on. but, they still stood there for very lonq. the funny thinq is tt dad could still sit infront of me when he actually saw me talkinq otp, like want t keypoh like tt. so, ie went out of the hse and sat at 238 and there ie just cried and cried and talked t SA. ie said tt ie felt left out. ie was freakinq sad. and SA asked me if ie wanted t come down Tamp. bt ie told SA, ie wasnt even feelinq qood enouqh to qo back hm to take my ezlink, ie just wanna b alone. then, talked and talked. and SA said it was the first time SA saw/hear me this down. and cryinq. * paiseh * im so like crybby. SA thouqht ie was a cheerful type. hais. SA dunnoe how to console me as our family backqrounds are diff and SA hasnt qone thru this before. but its okey, thanks SA for listeninq to my membebel for once. haha, thank God you are here. its the second tyme ue said, ue saw me sad. ferst was bcus of Wan and yst cus of family. yes sey, yq psl Wan, SA webcam with me and ie like so damn stress but SA was there. yst, when ie asked SA to call, ue did. hais. thanks alot SA, ily. now cant sleep, called Lisha and talked t her for only 6mins? she said she went town just nw with Wan and she wanted me t taq alonq actually. ie also wanted text her actually. haha, no fate. we were thinkinq of each other coincidentally but the thinq is we didnt appear in front of each other in real life. missed lisha. haha, my bad girl! went thru lots of thinqs up and down, ehq lisha? ill come meet ue soon babe (: hais. ie miss my past times when lisha, nabilah, shakilah, asiqah and the rest were toqether. tpy sumerh da ite, and doinq their own thinqs now. and now so busy with their mataer. SUMERH LUPE AKU! yst called nabilah, and as usual OSCAR, her boyfriend. hais, when will someone actually stop and look at me? ie think im lack of attention. later on meetinq Wan qo buqis, he's qot his pay alr. He wants t buy me stuff but actually ie dont feel qood abt it, cus im nt like those qerls who take quy money. But ie dont mind spendinq my money on him. Haha, tebalik pulak! ie am actually missinq him ryte nw, and ie just want t qive him a call but his tired and he needs some sleep. tk baik kan kacau orq yq tqh tido. herms, ill just wait for his text. ie saw him online bt ie quess he did not siqn out. oh ya! just nw my convo with lisha ...
Lisha : Nanti aku kluar nqan mak aku q town ! Abeh kau ?
Nana : Aku kluar q Buqis nqan Wan (:
Silence for a moment ?
Nana : Wan kawan aku , ukan mataer kau !
Lisha : * laughs *
takot nah ny lisha. hais, ie actually cant believe tt ie havent told her abt my love life. we were so close but ie havent told her a thinq abt Wan. soon kaey babe! when im free ie will. sure, ie will sleep over ur hse soon. now feelinq scared actually, idk. ie scared Wan tk suke my pranqai cus just nw ie told him abt runaway thinq and ie always say tt he has new qirl. im scared he will just b pissed off by me. idk whats wronq with me. 5:29am, just texted Wan . " cant slip , imy " haha, serious la, imy. he is my everythinq in this worldddd and ie love you bie. Shine Aelys, thanks for the advice and im sorry today dint qo down tpy to find ue quys. ie was tired. now, im qonna off my lappy before any one of my family members wakes up and thinks tt im crazy bloqqinq in the morninq. Bby, see how much ie love ue till ur pic is stuck up there. (:
COULD YOU COME AND HUG ME PLS, I MISS YOU BBY (:
