Stress .

hais. ie dk why they even want me out when ie was in there when ie seem nothinq in their eyes now. if ie knew ie should just stay in there and not go out maybe they'll be happier. went to eat and buy stuffs with my parents. firstly, ie dont talk to dad but it seems like just nw mum keep askinq me to qo to him whereas she already knew how ie felt towards my dad. ie felt very hurt when she kept pushinq me to him. arqh, dont feel like stayinq at home anymore. both my brothers just want me t be perfect, too strict to me. but its okey cus most of the time they're at camp and they dont really bother my life. ie have no mood t talk t anybody. cus ie just wanna cry alone. ie dont need anyone t comfort me. wan busy with work and ie also dont want t call him cryinq. nvm, ill jsut b alone ryte nw. he is workinq and will only be back home at ard 11- 12. hais. nobody will understand what im qq thru ryte nw. nvr felt left out before like this. tts y ie dont want t qo home. haha, Nana kan invisible. ryte nw, im independent. ie can do thinqs on my own w/o my parents askinq me to. bt, ie still dont understand my mum. wow, bpk qnie then mak mcm qnie. im at dinninq hall alone, not like other days. mum always there for me. shes talkinq to the rest upstair in KakWidya room. ie really have no mood for anythinq, for now and maybe for the followinq days. arqh, Sab, ie just wanna continue stayinq with ue. forever laah. when ie was inside last tyme, mum said tt she wanted me t stay at Tamp hse bt nw when im happy over here thinqs happen. idk what ie should do riqht nw, im stuck. ie could qo bck my old ways if ie wanted t bt ie choose nt to cus im sick of ppl talkinq bout me. its all my past, ie wanna start afresh. ie should not have followed them there if ie knew this would happen. hais. what a life. better off dead. arqh, dont talk t me. im in no mood. sorry people.