my true feelings.

11pm otp with you;
DEAREST WAN,
1. Why am I always quarelling with Wan?
2. What am I doing with guys pdhl i hate guys?
3. Why am I and dad like strangers?
4. What am I to Wan?
5. Am I ready for r/sp?
6. Should I change cus i want ppl to accept me?
7. What is love?
8. Do these ppl even need me?
Wan. I know you love me. I do too but suddenly i felt different cus i just feel we are not meant t be. You and i are like two different people. You love sweet gerls & just too bad, i am not. My life is filled with black dots. I am not good. You dont like it but why are you still sticking around me. I just cant bear to hurt you by making you wait for me to change. I just know tt it'll take a superrr long time. Eversince you said abt my attitude we have been quarreling. Ie am tired. I want t be happy. Yes u do make me happy bt its been long since u last put a smile on my face. I da tk happy. Instead im always STRESSED UP. Alaaaa, im just nt the perfect gerl your looking for. Why cant ue accept the way i am. Ie just read ur facebook just nw. U wrote smtg abt my attitude. Ah, Whatever. Ie can forgive but nvr foget what u said t me. Its very hurting. Well, ie guess ie just dowanna b in a r/sp nw. Ie da malas uh cus ppl cant accept me. Ie mean if ue love or like me, well accept me the way ie am. Yesterday, ue feel like crying cus ue saw ur exdate. Herms, still think abt other gerls. Well, ie will think abt other guys then. Bt pls, im not that type of gerl, ie dont flirt around. Best friends only. The guys who claim t like me, ie dont even know if they are serious. Well, senang je. Nk, stick, tnk brambos. I dont know, being in love is just temporary. I dont mind ppl not loving me. Im just a simple gerl. Yeap, thats what ie am. I love the ppl who accept me. The best thing bout ue is that ue always dont layan my mesg-es and calls when ue angry w me. Ie feel like ue are such an unpredictable guy, come and go. It makes me feel so insecure. One day, you'll just leave me just like tt like other guys. Idk what t do. Ie wish ue were here now. U, where are you? imysm. i have no one else.