You Will Always Be My Baby

MUHD SYAZWAN, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE DOES LOVE YOU.

okey this is specially for you my beloved dinosaur (: 1150pm

today ie was thankful tt ue could actually meet me, sorry tt ue had t meet me though ur father was like in tt condition. i love you bby. it is okey even if ue didnt follow me to lavenda and suntec cus ie also dont want t tire ue. yst ue had t go t work ryte? well, actually ie am feeling very tired but ie wanted t make this post specially for ue my bby dinosaur. im sorrie if ie always make ue angry by accusing ue with other girls. i dont mean it actually. you have t control your anger towards me. & thank god your patient. ie think if you were like other guys they would have slapped me. but still ue are patient towards me. bby, ue sooooo smelly! have ue taken ur shower in the morning? haha. ie love ue no matter what. thanks for being a correct directory for today, at least ie reached to my correct destination not like the other time at paya lebar. haha. are ue nt worried tt if ie start working at suntec then ue will have no chance to look at girls. haha! bby, as each day passes, everytime im with you. ie feel very happy. ie just wanna stay by your side at all times. and thats why ie do want to stay overnight with ue at pasir ris. ie dont mind if im tired or anything. im with you, nothing esle matters. even though we just sat at that place the whole time we met up today, it wasnt boring at all. ie was happy that ie could spend and waste tyme with you today as yst ue couldnt meet me up. ie missed ue badly yst at home. hehe. bby, ie have never let other guys mess up my hair before. only ue, since ur hair short and ie pity ue. haha, nolah. cus ur the guy who changed me and ue entered my life and changed me. ie cnt wait for saturday. ive always been looking forward for it so stop asking me if ie wanna go out with you. hais, bby ie cnt afford t loose ue. ie do love ue. sorry if ie aint perfect for ue. bie, nyarie ue tk smoke whols day kan? im proud of ue. ily. bby, tk manis kan gerl isap rokok? so im manis ryte? ie wanna be a good gerl, just for you. must rmbr kaey, 20april ; xchanqe num, 23 april ; first meet. if forqet means ue qot new qerl! hehe. lonq enough?

WAN'NANA LOVESTORY(:

imy.

Just came back from eating at cofeeshop. Wahhh, syg wan uhs! Went out at around 1 am, and told wan tt ie had to go ferst. Kxian dyeh ie go offline. Then makan and came back home, still online. haha, & he said waiting for me. but rabak, ask me send pic. ie send t him and then he straightaway offline. ugh, tkpe. there's always tmrw. ily bby dinosaur. (: Nana Syg Wan !

Syazwan, ILY.

today feeling so tired, these few days keep ggoing out. ie need some rest. ive got photos to upload but its with the stupid akia. lol, smlm pegy bugis shopping with my dearest sabby then went tpy met akiah, BIEIESHERSTAR, SHINEAELYS, SINTRICKSY. haha. didnt intend t smoke, but sherstar offered, so ie smoke around 2 sticks ajeh! when we were sitting at skypark, this inconsiderate fellow threw plasticbags of idk what from his house t the place we were sitting. wahhhh so we had t move t another place and as we walk we disturb couples yg sedang dating kat tempat kite. lol. then sin and aelys went t jalan2, so it was me and sherstar. then akiah came with the couples and straightaway the couples left when akiah came down. we three also went off. followed akiah go psris wanna meet her friends then lmbt sgt so ie pon nk jmpe ie nye bby so ie jalan dulu. kxian bby aku tk isap rkk the whole day so ie bought winston for him. stupid 711 mintak ic, aq blom 18 so ie couldnt buy. belik kt inter jeh. then bought mac untok dyeh and straightaway go down cthall. hais, wrindu dyeh laah. hes not angry with me anymore! sayang wan laah, no one else. then smpi saner at 815, tk jalan shortcut g longway(: then smpi saner jeh, tngu dyeh then suddenly dyeh pop out from nowhere ckp magic. what only ue! then kiterh g ddk tmpt keje dyeh nye blakang. ie like his bini alr. haha, mataer blom. then he asked me why ie cry, is it bcus of the saat kau pergi song? haha. *paiseh* then, we talk all the way. then his workfriend came and smoke, talk t wan. hais. imy laah. then he went back his workplace aft break. waited for him at our place at the mean time. then he came, sit down beside me. tgk "movie" then went t take bus home. wahhhhh what a long journey with him for the first time. slalu naeq mrt then he wont lyn me as there will be many ppl. but yst he entertained me all the way. nyanyinyanyi with no voice but actions. cute lah dyeh nie. then he sed me back home, buy drink. sit under block talk for a while. then before ie went up (: bby ie love ue more than anything. ie guess ive made the right choice by choosing you. bby, dont gatal2 okie!

5May2010

For Special.

SYAZWAN FORGIVE ME.
now your gone, thanks for everything that you've done for me. sacrificed for me. the laughter you brought to me. the smile that you put across my face. every single thing tt you've done, i will never forget. it will be etched in my heart and mind. i am sorry for not being able to make you happy. instead, i have hurt you. i know you want me t be happy, thanks for that. but when everything happen yesterday, ie suddenly went blank. when ie went to meet afan yst, ie felt happy. obviously. cus ie havent me her for like a month alr. ie told her bout you. and then when we talked things out, i realize tt she still love me, so ie cant possibly basterd her ryte? and tt moment ie felt like so stressed up. tts y ie told ue not t cntct me anymore. but idk if im even serious in what i saying. lagypon when ue call me ie nk mkn. tts y ie cnt talk. then when ie texted you, ue teros tk lyn. ie felt like WTH, binget uhs. ie made ue go far away from me. its my fault. ie miss the day at this pic. everything seemed perfect. ie miss those times with you. ie rmbr telling you not t smoke infront of me and ue threw away the cigg. and the 4 sticks. so much memories. but everything change in just a day, its all my fault. now, im just hoping you cool down. u cant stop me from crying cus i am a very fragile person. like ie said, your the one who opened my heart for guys. ie just lost somebody tt was so good to me. its all my fault. ie know tt one day ie will loose afan. ie can feel it. now nana tkde wan, soon nana pon tkde afan. when both tkde, ie guess ie have t stand up on my own alone. ue said ue werent gonna be like other guys, but it proved so much tt ue are. ur just like them who throw girls away just like tt. right nw, ie am just wishing tt ie could see ue smile once again. and the phone to ring. but its over like ue said. hais. ive never seen someone so hard hearted lyke ue before. why. nana bodoh uh kau. imysm. ue lied t me, kate nk hug? instead kene hurt ade uh. ie told ue before tt ur the most important t me. first priority is ue and my mum. bt ue just left without letting me explain. ie just want ue t know, that ie love you, wan. ie love you. ie cnt forget ue. please forgive me. hais. none can replace you. sorry uh tadie tk mkn, psl ue binget ie tkde mood nk mkn. ie felt angry actually cus ue treat me like nothing. mcm invisible. sedeh uh. omg. special, imy. dont be angry, nnti cpat tue.

Tamp & Hagendaz (:

JB.

my true feelings.

11pm otp with you;
DEAREST WAN,
1. Why am I always quarelling with Wan?
2. What am I doing with guys pdhl i hate guys?
3. Why am I and dad like strangers?
4. What am I to Wan?
5. Am I ready for r/sp?
6. Should I change cus i want ppl to accept me?
7. What is love?
8. Do these ppl even need me?
Wan. I know you love me. I do too but suddenly i felt different cus i just feel we are not meant t be. You and i are like two different people. You love sweet gerls & just too bad, i am not. My life is filled with black dots. I am not good. You dont like it but why are you still sticking around me. I just cant bear to hurt you by making you wait for me to change. I just know tt it'll take a superrr long time. Eversince you said abt my attitude we have been quarreling. Ie am tired. I want t be happy. Yes u do make me happy bt its been long since u last put a smile on my face. I da tk happy. Instead im always STRESSED UP. Alaaaa, im just nt the perfect gerl your looking for. Why cant ue accept the way i am. Ie just read ur facebook just nw. U wrote smtg abt my attitude. Ah, Whatever. Ie can forgive but nvr foget what u said t me. Its very hurting. Well, ie guess ie just dowanna b in a r/sp nw. Ie da malas uh cus ppl cant accept me. Ie mean if ue love or like me, well accept me the way ie am. Yesterday, ue feel like crying cus ue saw ur exdate. Herms, still think abt other gerls. Well, ie will think abt other guys then. Bt pls, im not that type of gerl, ie dont flirt around. Best friends only. The guys who claim t like me, ie dont even know if they are serious. Well, senang je. Nk, stick, tnk brambos. I dont know, being in love is just temporary. I dont mind ppl not loving me. Im just a simple gerl. Yeap, thats what ie am. I love the ppl who accept me. The best thing bout ue is that ue always dont layan my mesg-es and calls when ue angry w me. Ie feel like ue are such an unpredictable guy, come and go. It makes me feel so insecure. One day, you'll just leave me just like tt like other guys. Idk what t do. Ie wish ue were here now. U, where are you? imysm. i have no one else.