in sch :)

Azleen and Hafizah ask me t update. :)
im in school nw. its been 2 weeks ive went and someone has been pestering me(not exactly), my mum though. so today i woke up at 630am bcus my small sis wanted me t go fetch her to sch. but i cnt wake up so i slept and woke up at 7. when i opened my eyes first thing was check (L) fb. and i saw something. is it my fault ): i bathed and went out t sch. told joanna i went sch cus the other day out of concern she asked me wads wrong and why i didnt come t sch so long. when i went parade square hafizah turned and smiled and waved at me. :) then azleen too. went t study near src. saw joanna. she went hm -.-" came late and then went home. texted (L), he said its nt my fault. aft sch meeting (L) ^ ^ i hope sch ends quick. nk nutella!
ive not been updating my blog for so long. so, let me update about my life nw... me and (L) goona be 6months on oct. so long :) im still working at sportslink bt im thinking of changing job.. for some reasons. wanna try uniqlo. but im goona pass it cus i knw its hard t get. mayb im transferring outlet frm farrer park t hgg. its nearer anyway. my hari raya i just went out on the 1st day ONLY except with (L). so 2 days la? my hari raya money also finish. my pay too :) 10th oct $$ pls insert my pay on time. Sportslink pay is nvr on time. ALWAYS DELAY! ): ive applied at amk cathay but they havent call heh, seriously im sad. Aisha is leaving sportslink too, boring! 17oct ^ ^ cnt wait.
n level 4th oct, is coming. herms, im not tto confident about my exam cnt say laah. bt i will b happy if at least i pass.
ok, byeeeeeeeee~

Happy Three Months, ILY. sorry for not updating blog for very long as im busy with school and work. i also didnt want to post all my unhappy stuffs in here. but now finally me and wan are happy once again. he did keep to his promise to change to be a better person and yes he is. no more quarrels. just happiness between us(:
this is a special post for ue bie... i just wanna say thankiew for everything uve sacrificed for me. ur time, ur patience, ur love. almost everything that u do for me, i really appreciate. im soory if ie ever neglect ue. im soory if ie cant be there for you always but just so ue know, i miss you every second ur not there. but ie know ur heart and soul will always be by my side. im happy that we are back together once again. this time round, we will surely last long. i wont ask ue for a breakup like last time bcus of a stupid reason. i trust u tt ur feelings wont fade for me anymore cus i promise ue that ill always be by ur side. morning, afternoon, night. the whole day spend will only be with you. even if one day ue have to leave me for NS, i will wait for ue. trust me im not like other girls. idk why since the first time i met ue, i knew u were the right one for me and up till now even though uve hurt me time and again my heart keeps saying your the one for me and i surely cant leave ue. ie just wanna be with you. for the first time i met a guy we could last this long. uve shown me that ue are really different from other guys. thanks for taking care of me really good when i nvr go school. if one day u leave me, i really dunno wad t do. dearest, i really love u so much.  

its been 24hours after we fought. so its been 1 day without him. i miss him, i feel miserable. yst, i couldnt stop myself from texting him but then i think i should control. ppl would think that im a (L)oser. sabar Nana, sabar. i believe in Karma. what goes around comes around. but im not cursing him i just want him t know how much im hurting nw, make him realise. Why me? I thought your the one who said you dont wanna lose me but end up you left me. i miss calling u Sayang, and then manje2 with you. every moments with you. hais, tkpela, ill give u some space. for those who wanna know wad happen, Syazwan's feeling has faded for me. That means he doesnt love me bt he said im still in his heart, actually i dont understand, but i just know i still really love him. but its all gone........ Im sorry for neglecting him and tts y he dont fell the love. i wanna make up, but dunno how to.

define love. im just so sad right now. we are drifting, why? lesser time together and i dont even know if he still loves me. hes still at punggol park nw and hes stuck hais mesged him a while ago but no reply i think he has off his fone. im lazy to say what happened today. idk if hes happy( exclude the fact that he got a fish ) well, is he happy tt he got to spend time with me? eversince we fought at the bustop and he felt sick, he never showed and shower his love to me like he used to. everything changed so quickly. im scared t loose him but im ready. but at the same time i have to. what should i do now? when i meet him he doesnt even pay attention t me anymore. im not joking, im serious.

19june malacca

my sayang SABBY cuzzin and me slept all the way in the coach, and ate at every stop. tts all for our malacca trip(:

I AM TIRED, GIVE ME TIME TO UPDATE BLOG.
THANKYOUVERYMUCH.

for bby (:

today i went out with my family. RW, Singapore Flyer was boring. tau jmpe bby cus i really2 miss him alot. walaopon we meet like almst everyday, whenever i apart from him, i feel very lonely. hais ): yst nana go laser tatoo at simei. SYIOK seh. pedeh2 and panas jeh tpi tk pain pon. bby was very worried for me, alaahh cute nye dyeh! aft laser ie jmpe wan at hgg interchange psl i wan go pasar mlm. smpi sane ramai giler org seh, tk suke! ie lapar so ie mkn kt QiJi je, ate laksa. then aft that he ajak me go punggol park. pegi sane rupernye ny dinosaur ade bwk line ngan roti nk panceng! tersembunyi dlm pocket dyeh. lol. dudok2 sane. irritate dyeh, bully dyeh. kxian bby. then aleq nye time, dyeh tk lyn ie lansong ): he said he felt sick but he was very2 quiet never respond me at all. ie was sad and at the same time furious. but still ie nvr fail t talk t him, STILL nvr reply me. then we quarreled, cus of something. hais. but da okie da psl aft ie walked off ie kol him and we talked things out. IMY bby. then smlm dyeh entertain ie kat msn On and Off, his lappy ade problem. smpi ie tunggu dyeh on9, ie tetido. Ie woke up at 5am cus ie felt smtg hot at my hand. it was my lappy!! ie dint off it, but ie saw a sweet mesg from wan and ie straight away texted him. nw waiting for him t cum hm from panceng. pls entertain me soon, imy !

TODAY IS THE 2ND NIGHT somebody ISNT HERE TO ENTERTAIN ME ONLINE ! AKU SIAN PSL WAN GI MINUM!!!
SIANSIANSIAN..... ): AKU TKLEH TIDO tpi aku ckp ngan dyeh aq
nak tido PSL AKU SIAN !! nobody entertain aq !!
( IM LEFT T DIE )

hello ppl !! xoxo ; i miss Muhd Syazwan so much . he just woke up. yst woke up at 1 then baked chicken. thumbs down for tt as i accidentaly hit my finger on the hot oven ): i suck, how t be housewife? lol. then bathe and went out t meet wan syq . took 25 but bus was super late ! syq , how do you pronounce B-U-S ? hehe (: then met wan and he went eat . i was a little headache , dk why ? then we went sit under block , dpt irritate dyeh byk2 , * atikkaahhh * lucky for me he dint qet anqry . then he want qo pancenq so he went home ferst take his thinqs abeh kite naeq 88 . while waitinq qot this uncle ask him how to open text mesq , SLENGER BTOL !! adoii , he said the text mesq qot reminder . then ie ask him wad , tk bayar bill ehq ? lol . then otw qi hqq ave 8 he ask me if ie kenal yana ? pompan ne je tau . then we went buy qoldfish and head off t punqqol park . ferst time qi fishinq he teach me . nana nie bodoh siket ! he ask me touch e fish . EEEE ! ie was like shoutinq . tk brani peqanq fish laahs . then dyeh dpt fish but terlepas . kxian dyeh !! hais . i miss him laah , nk spend tyme nqan dyeh laqy cam smalam . the Dinosaur was able t carry me seyh , means im not heavy laah . haha , tpi wan said ie heavy . wth -______-"" takpe laahs . b4 we went hm , he forced me t touch e fish, he said if ie nvr touch means ie nvr sayanq him. STRESS! but ie touhed abit jeh. EEEWW!! then when ie huq him, skalie ade ikan kt my hand! idiotic syazwan, put at my hand . then we went hm sweet hm . send him t bustop kejap je , then my sister call me say she want eat , so bby ask me qo hm ferst buy food for her. syq, qot hear the one last by taufik alr ? ;D

SYG ily!

today me woke up at 930am early2, dunnoe why, mummy and all went out. ie angon tros mesg satu org ny, Bbylove* rindu laah plak pagi2 bute! haha. then jmpe lisha and wan at 3. pastu makan sume then doranq nk q KK, but ie went cthall met wan. Everything was alright except when go home time. hais!!

Thursday outing.

Yst, SM mesged me and asked me out. Finally!! Cus SM is always busy with love life. Siann!! I woke up late so its okie, cus the BBQ was 630. i went out ard 5 pegi compass and hgg mall buy stuffs first then ameq 89 qi pasirrs. it was so gelap at the park so SM fetched me cus ie also donnoe where is pit4. Then pegi saner we talked and ie really had fun with SM. Ate hotdog banyak skalie. SM kene kopek udang for me if nt ie wont eat. (: SM ate the prawn shell skalie! haiyo! SM rupernye isap rkk, dlm diam2. kasie SM one of my qelang. keypoh kan ni SM. hahahaha, SM IsyquToo. After the bbq, i fetched wan bby from work. Actually he said no nid fetch if im qq bck late from bbq, tpi ie aseq2 cam paitao dyeh plak nnti. So i fetch him. I am always happy when im wif him. (: HAPPY SKALIE!

imy.

MUHD SYAZWAN BIN ABDUL RAZAK!!!!!!!!!!!! imy!

i am bored.

yst aft wan bby met me and pass txbooks, then walk2 at heartland, ate. then send him t bustop. he made my day(: love him so much!!!!! then aft that met nabilah, went cmpass waited for her boyfie, then ate at banquet. lpas tuh i peqi amk jmpe wan. jalan2 kt saner. so total in one day i met him twice(: now qq meet nabilah, carik keje at tamp!(: Cepatlah 2months 0 weeks 0 days (:

sick

AKU WRINDU SYAZWAN MCM NK MAMPOS SKRG! ): AKU BATOK AND FLU PON MCM NK MMPOS . ASL AKU LOM MAMPOS ? kejap agi nk keje kul 4 . nk rest ! (:

BBY Birthday(:

his birthday falls on 1st june and ie get t celebrate wif him on e actual day as i took my day off. i went out at 1 t collect the cake and met liyana and friend. they had interview at bbqchic so i also teman them and took my cheque. sophie kept the cake and reserved table for me. wan rched my hse before me. then went up faster chanqe then met him dwnstair. told wan i wanted t qo eat then went my werkplace. haha, dyeh shock. then we ordered food. aft that the cake came(: and after the food was all cleared, the present came. after tt went simlim psl dyeh nk jmpe adeq and mak dyeh psl dyeh nk belik laptop. then peqi tpy jap jmpe kwn dyeh. herms, we were thinkinq of rentinq a hse at there bt we were underaqe haha. mepek je kite. okee, ie quess tts all abt his bdae. ie was v happy t have spend my time with him. bby, why have we drifted apart? i miss you evrytime we are so far apart. i need you, i have no one else in my life right now but then it seems that im starting to loose ue. b, pls dont leave me. ie promise ue tt ie wont loose contact with ue. its just tt im nt prepared t loose ue one day thats why i feel like wanting t give up. hais. im nt making you like a fool or whatsoever making you wait, i stll want you back in my life. b, i wanna make ue happy like every other days. please forgive me if i ever hurt ur feelings. IMYSM b. ):

IMYSM.

dear bbydino, im now waiting for ur text then ill call ue. i really miss ue, its been like decades tt we've last spend time together and ie feel very miserable seyh bby. today im really glad t send ue t werk though im ver sleepy as i reach hm only after 11 every night. hais. but im happy tt things between us is improving. lesser fights, and at least we talk otp everyday after work. hais. & nana very notty always use the workplace phone call bby. ); ie feel like crying. ie wanna b with him but i cant. actually ie dont even have any intention t break up but ie dont want t neglect him. let nature takes its course. b, when want t buy house for us both? hehe. 2 more days t bie's bdae. ie cant wait t spend time with him. da request off, da dpt(: ie hope ie can really make him happy on his bdae. hais. working at bbq is oke but closing is super tired as we have t throw rubbish, clear all the mess etc, but its alright. at least i can do smtg useful rather than stay home doing nothing right? well, SA collected tix from me yst so ive got money t settle my pay for order. im so busy and ie havent finished my project which i have t b done with by june. b, i miss you so much laahs. hais.
I WANNA BE YOUR ONLY ONE ALWAYS.

busy.

busy schooling and working. will not be frequently adding posts.
to syazwan- dont worry ill always be there for you(:

WTF.

Please Syazwan, Let me Go if you have other girls. Atiqah? Pls dont hurt me, i dont mind, i am nobody t stop you from gg on with other girls. In the first place, why did you text her right? Asal u marahkan ie sedangkan u yang buat salah. Ive always been giving in to you cus ie dont want to ruin our r/sp. Psl my past dont talk abt it, da lamer sey criter, sedangkan pompan tuh its happening now in the present. So can see the diff? You tk suke when ie mesg other guys, but FYI they are my friends and i know them, seen them. Pompan tuh, starting fb, msn, number next step what? Whoa, then it will really hurt me. Really. And that point of time i'll just break down. Thanks for everything. Yst what did u actually wanna say, What If?? What If you liked her? Go ahead Wan. I'll just step aside. Maybe a sweet and nice girl like her is what ue are looking for. I know what type of person you are till u criticize me last time. Im sorry i cant be like her. You spoilt the happiness we were gg through yst. Why now then u tell me? Not last time. Hais. This is why i dont want t get into r/sp cus theres always smtg wrong. Pls, im not like ur other ex that will basterd. Sape yg basted sape dulu? Hah, thanks alot. So all these while what for you get angry when ie said tt you have other girls, isnt it a fact? I thought you said you are nt interested t find other girls, but you did kenal2 with atiqah. And u randomly added girls in FB, you confessed it yourslef. Since u enjoy with your single life, go on. I am no one to stop you, ie dont wanna control u. Pls leave me alone. If you were in shoes, ie think you'll be fuckingx100 more angry. But ie still could keep quiet. Ie dont wanna fight with you, cus everytime we do, it hurts me alot. Maybe u dont feel it. Why do you always have t make me cry and hurt? ): I HATE YOU!

Lonely.

nobody is entertaining me right now. nvm, shall just go sleep. thanks to anyone out there who has gone t sleep w/o me. ie feel v lonely. ahhhh, tkpe nana kan sape ): g laah tido. tadie abg pki laptop, ingat dyeh leh tunggu skalie he talk t me like diffrent like tt. skalie when text him say nothing2 skalie actually psl dyeh kate ' dyeh bbual nqan nana mcm orq bodo ' cus ie nvr reply. sorrrriiieeeeee ): ah, ie cnnt be w/o him. tunngu dyeh aleq tpi tk dpt chat. No Words Can Express My Feeling Now. shudup laah nana ny irrtating nk mmpos. orq nk tido, sudahlah ! ):